An inner dialogue at the start of my motherhood journey, not knowing I would soon be pregnant with my miracle. Swimming in hopelessness, pain and confusion. Embracing what was. Exploring it all. Navigating both sides of the coin.
Pain vs pleasure …
One coin, two sides
Are we always touching both? Do we need one to feel the other? Can we only have one and not the other ?
Both exist together. What is the space between ?
Are we experiencing both simultaneously? Sometimes dipping into one more than the other, but the other still always existing ?
Is it about relinquishing one, or is it about feeling both and embracing them both?
Mmm the paradoxical nature of our reality within and without …
How can I let go 𓂓
And hold on so tightly at the same time.
To something that I have always dreamed of. Something that I feel I want to experience in every cell and every bone. Something that I have always longed for. Something that I have been shown is my destiny in this life. Something that my heart sings to since I was a little girl. Something I feel so powerfully was what I was born to do.
How can I let go & hold on at the same time 𓏧
How do I give it all up to Life 𓂃Creator𓂃 The Divine Mother 𓂃Pachamama and allow the channel to fully open to what is truly meant for me.
How do I relinquish control & fully trust?
While at the same time, create my own reality.
How to dance on both sides of the coin 𓂻𓂽
Embracing both fully
Feeling both fully
Trusting both fully
Softening into the knowing that all is well in my world and I am being held and guided in every moment.
Wild surrender
Knowing that both exist and I can embrace both
Dissipate separation & find full merged connection
What happens when we explore that either-or can be what is meant to be and we find fulfillment anyway?
What happens when we pave that path and we take the journey of least resistance ?
Softening & resting in the
in between 𓃆𓂃𓂃𓂃𓂃𓂃𓂃𓂃𓃆
